December 14, 2018
Eduardo Glen Mora
Many things have changed in 3 years. I knew I had a problem for very long but always put it on hold. I didn’t want to address it; my pride won’t let me. It took 18 months, and after years of keeping it contained, it finally took over, I lost control of it and went down so fast. I knew there was no way out. I found desperation, and when asked if I wanted help I jumped right into it. I am grateful I did because I was going to die if I continue on that path.
I went from the struggle minute by minute to stay away from picking up to the victory to go to bed sober. From seeing long-term sobriety as too much time to need more time of it because three years are not enough.
We are made from all of these feelings; life is all kind of experiences. You can’t be happy all the time. It is ok to be angry, sad and depressed sometimes because that is the way it is.
Life will bring you a few good things and then a bunch of bad ones. If you are looking for only the highs and want to avoid the lows, you will only find disappointment.
So, after all this time you realize it. You have been waiting for the big moment, the epiphany. Well, this is it, this doesn’t go away. You wrestle it every day. So you are happy to be able to do it. Others don’t t get to be that lucky.